*nadare-sama

this'll be my last official journal for now..
i'll update my quiz one every now and then..

anyway..
this week is horrible.. its just going straight to hell...

i have this sharp pain in my neck.. it goes from the top of my neck down to my tail bone... i was planning on going boating this week but because of the pain, i cant. the pain became so bad today i started crying in church...
as if the pain wasnt enough i found out one of the leaders i had for YW (and was a close friend to me) is about to pass away.. she was about 20 or 30...
i went swimming last night which was a total embarrassment to me... i had forgotten my swimsuit up in salt lake city.. so i borrowed my moms. it's too small for me.. so i had to wear a shirt and some pants over it as i swam... the shirt was also too small... and the pants just looked silly... i'll never be self conscious in a swimsuit ever again.. as long as its not one of my moms.
alot of my friends still seem to be ignoring me... its not as bad as before.. but it's still happening...

im working on a bunch of trades ancd gifts and stuff... so check out my 'working on journal' and tell me if im missing anythign that i owe you...
i'll be doing alot of traditional drawings... though i'm going to be working on one digital drawing today..

also...
since im doing so many traditional drawings, id be more than happy to do a live video of me drawing so you can see what steps i take, where i draw, and the room i have to draw on...
so if you wanna do that, let me know... i can do it on msn, aim, yahoo.. and i may redownload skype...

thats all.. e_e im going to finish this picture..
ciao...